프라이머리(Primary) - Poison 독 (Feat. E-Sens of 슈프림팀) Lyrics [Hangul/Rom/Eng]

[HANGUL]

시간 지나 먼지 덮인 많은 기억
시간 지나면서 내 몸에 쌓인 독 
자유롭고 싶은 게 전보다 훨씬 더 심해진 요즘 
난 정확히 반쯤 죽어있어 
눈에 보이는 건 아니지만 난 믿은 것 
그게 날 이끌던 걸 느낀 적 있지 분명
그 시작을 기억해 
나를 썩히던 모든 걸 비워내 
붙잡아야지 잃어가던 것 

지금까지의 긴 여행 
꽉 쥔 주먹에 
신념이 가진 것의 전부라 말한 시절엔 
겁먹고 낡아 버린 모두를 비웃었지 
반대로 그들은 날 겁 줬지 
나 역시 나중엔 
그들같이 변할 거라고 어쩔 수 없이
그러니 똑바로 쳐다보라던 현실
그는 뛰고 싶어도 앉은 자리가 더 편하대
매번 그렇게 나와 너한테 거짓말을 해

그 담배 같은 위안 땜에 좀먹은 정신 
어른이 돼야 된다는 말 뒤에 숨겨진 건 
최면일 뿐 절대 현명해 지고 있는 게 아냐 
안주하는 것뿐 줄에 묶여있는 개마냥 
배워가던 게 그런 것들뿐이라서 
용기 내는 것만큼 두려운 게 남들 눈이라서 

그 꼴들이 지겨워서 그냥 꺼지라 했지 
내 믿음이 이끄는 곳 그 곳이 바로 
내 집이며 내가 완성되는 곳 
기회란 것도 온다면 
옆으로 치워놓은 꿈 때문에 
텅 빈 껍데기뿐인 너 보단 나에게 
마음껏 비웃어도 돼 

날 걱정하는 듯 말하며 니 실팰 숨겨도 돼 
다치기 싫은 마음뿐인 넌 가만히만 있어 
그리고 그걸 상식이라 말하지 
비겁함이 약이 되는 세상이지만 
난 너 대신 흉터를 가진 
모두에게 존경을 이겨낸 이에게 축복을

깊은 구멍에 빠진 적 있지 
가족과 친구에겐 문제없이 사는 척
뒤섞이던 자기 혐오와 오만 
거울에서 조차 날 쳐다보는 눈이 싫었어 

열정의 고갈 
어떤 누구보다 내가 싫어하던 그 짓들 
그게 내 일이 된 후엔 죽어가는 느낌뿐 
다른 건 제대로 느끼지 못해 
뒤틀려버린 내 모습 봤지만 
난 나를 죽이지 못해 
그저 어딘가 먼 데로 
가진 걸 다 갖다 버린대도 

아깝지 않을 것 같던 그 때는 
위로가 될만한 일들을 
미친놈같이 뒤지고 지치며 
평화는 나와 관계없는 일이었고 
불안함 감추기 위해 목소리 높이며 
자존심에 대한 얘기를 화내며 지껄이고 
헤매었네 어지럽게 

누가 내 옆에 있는지도 모르던 때
그 때도 난 신을 믿지 않았지만 
망가진 날 믿을 수도 없어 
한참을 갈필 못 잡았지 

내 의식에 스며든 질기고 지독한 감기
몇 시간을 자던지 개운치 못한 아침
조바심과 압박감이 찌그러트려놓은 젊음 
거품, 덫들, 기회 대신 오는 유혹들 
그 모든 것의 정면에서 다시 처음부터
붙잡아야지 잃어가던 것

급히 따라가다 보면 
어떤 게 나인지 잊어가 점점

급히 따라가다 보면 
어떤 게 나인지 잊어가 점점

멈춰야겠으면 지금 멈춰
우린 중요한 것들을 너무 많이 놓쳐

급히 따라가다 보면 
어떤 게 나인지 잊어가 점점

[ROMANIZED]

Sigan jina meonji deopin manheungieok

Siganjinamyeonseo nae mome ssahin dok

Jayuropgo sipeunge jeonboda hwolssin deosimhaejin yojeumnan jeonghwakhi banjjeum jugeoisseo

Nune boineun geon anijiman nan mideun geot

Geuge nal ikkeuldeon geol neukkin jeok itji bunmyeong

Geu sijageul gieokhae nareul sseokhideon modeun geol biwonae

Butjabayaji irheogadeon geot

Jigeumkkajiui gin yeohaeng

Kkwak jwin jumeogesinnyeomi gajingeosui jeonbura malhan sijeoren

Geommeokgo nalgabeorin modureul biuseotji

Bandaero geudeureun nal geop jwotji

Na yeoksinajungen geudeulgachi byeonhal georago eojjeol su eobsi

Geureoni ttokbaro chyeodaboradeon hyeonsil

Geuneun ttwigo sipeodo anjeun jariga deo pyeonhadae

Maebeon geureoke nawa neohante geojitmareul hae

Geu dambaegateun wianttaeme jommeogeun jeongsin

Eoreuni dwaeya doendaneun mal dwie sumgyeojin geonchoemyeonilppun jeoldae hyeonmyeonghae jigo inneunge anya

Anjuhaneun geotppun jure mukkyeoinneun gaemanyang

Baewogadeonge geureon geotdeulppuniraseo

Yongginaeneun geotmankeum duryeounge namdeul nuniraseo

Geu kkoldeuri jigyeowoseo geunyang kkeojira haetji

Nae mideumi ikkeuneun got geu gosi baro nae jibimyeonaega wanseongdoeneun got

Gihoeran geotdoondamyeon yeopeuro chiwonoheun kkum ttaemune teong bin kkeopdegippunin neo bodan naege

Maeumkkeot biuseodo dwae

Nal geokjeonghaneundeut malhamyeo ni silpaereul sumgyeodo dwae

Dachigi sirheun maeumppunin neon gamanhiman isseo

Geurigo geugeol sangsigira malhaji

Bigeophamiyagi doeneun sesangijiman

Nan neo daesin hyungteoreul gajin moduege jongyeongeul igyeonaen iege chukbogeur

Gipeun gumeonge ppajin jeok itji

Gajokgwa chinguegen munjeeobsi saneuncheok

Dwiseokkideon jagi hyeomowa oman

Geoureseo jochanal chyeodaboneun nuni sirheosseo

Yeoljeongui gogal

Eotteon nuguboda naega sirheohadeon geu jitdeul

Geuge nae iri doen huen jugeoganeun neukkimppun

Dareun geon jedaero neukkiji motae

Dwiteullyeobeorin nae moseup bwatjiman nan nareul jugiji motae

Geujeo eodinga meon dero gajin geol da gatda beorindaedo

Akkapji anheul geot gatdeon geu ttaeneun

Wiroga doelmanhan ildeureul michinnomgachi dwijigojichimyeo

Pyeonghwaneun nawa gwangyeeomneun irieotgo

Buranham gamchugi wihae moksori nopimyeojajonsime daehan yaegireul hwanaemyeo jikkeorigohemaeeonne eojireopge

Nuga nae yeope inneunjido moreudeon ttae

Geu ttaedo nansineul mitji anhatjiman manggajinnal mideul sudo eobseo hanchameul galpi mot jabatji

Nae uisige seumyeodeun jilgigo jidokhan gamgi

Myeotsiganeul jadeonji gaeunchi motan achim

Jobasimgwa apbakgami jjigeureoteuryeonoheun jeormeum

Geopum, deotteul, gihoe daesin oneun yuhokdeul

Geu modeun geosui jeongmyeoneseo dasi cheoeumbuteo

Butjabayaji irheogadeon geot

Geuphi ttaragadabomyeon eotteonge nainji ijeoga jeomjeom

Meomchwoyagesseumyeon jigeum meomchwo

Urin jungyohan geotdeureul neomu manhi nochyeo

[ENGLISH TRANSLATION]

After time passes, dust settles on the memories

As time passes, poison builds up in my body

These days, I want to be more free than before

I am exactly half dead these days

I couldn’t see it with my eyes but I believed it

I definitely felt that it pulled me forward

I remember that start and I empty out all the things that made me rot

I need to hold onto the things I was losing

The long journey till now

With clenched fists, when they said having faith was everything

I ridiculed everyone because they seemed scared and worn out

But on the contrary, they scared me

I thought I couldn’t help but to turn out like them later on

So I tried to look at reality straight on

Reality says it wants to run but is more comfortable sitting down

Each time, it lies to you and me like that

My mind was out of it because of the cigarette-like comfort

The hidden meaning behind “you’ll know when you grow up”

Is only a hypnosis – it doesn’t mean you’re getting wiser

You’re just living peacefully like a dog tied up on a leash

That’s the only thing that I learned so

Mustering up courage is as scary as other people’s eyes

I got so sick of them that I told them to piss off

The place my faith took me was my home

If I have a chance to go to the place that perfects me

I’ll be better than you, who is like an empty outer shell because of your set-aside dreams

So you can laugh at me all you want

You can pretend you’re worried about me while hiding your own failure

If you don’t wanna get hurt, just be quiet

They say that it’s common sense

Cowardice becomes medicine in this world but

I respect everyone who was scarred instead of you,

I bless everyone who overcame

I once fell into a deep hole

I pretended nothing was wrong in front of family and friends

My own disgust and pride was mixed together

So I even hated looking into the eyes in the mirror

The draining of my passion

The actions that I hated doing more than anyone else

After those actions became my work, I felt like I was dying

I couldn’t feel anything else properly

I saw my twisted self but I couldn’t kill myself

Even if I throw away everything I have far away somewhere

It seemed like it wouldn’t be a waste back then

I tiresomely searched for anything that could be a comfort like a crazy person

Peace was something that had nothing to do with me

I raised my voice to hide my anxiety

I angrily chattered about stories of my pride

I wandered and was dizzy

I didn’t even know if anyone was next to me back then

I didn’t believe in a God back then but I couldn’t believe my ruined self either

I couldn’t grasp a clear answer for a long time

A tough and severe cold seeped through my conscience

No matter how many hours I slept, my mornings weren’t refreshing

Uneasiness and a sense of oppression crushed my youth

In place of the foam, the traps and chances, came the temptations

In front of all those things, I need to go back to the start

I need to hold onto the things I was losing

If I rush to follow along, I keep forgetting which one is me

If I rush to follow along, I keep forgetting which one is me

If you need to stop, then stop now

We lose too many important things in life

If I rush to follow along, I keep forgetting which one is me